I was going to rant about how apathetic I feel about life right now, how I feel so ugly, how I feel so overwhelmed/pointless/confused, and how this strange apathy has led me to buy some DVDs and two books off of Ebay today compulsively. But then I tried to change my situation in order to shift how I feel. I lit a candle and put on The White Album, and now I'm eating grapes.
This is life, and sometimes I feel apathetic and sometimes I feel too much. It's never one thing! I am such a shape-shifter! I've just got to keep my head up, keep moving, and not settle for being stagnant. That's when things take a downward spiral. I need to keep doing things like art, reading, spiritual expansion, and even exercise. I need to exercise more! I should start making a plan or something. I want to loose 20 pounds by september; stress free, and nonchalant. I just want to eat a little less, and exercise a little more. Real cooool. Nothing major. I've got to "be just like the Fonz. And what is the Fonz? He's cool. That's right, just be cool."
I am even in the process of making some lists; a "movies I need to watch this summer" list, a "books I need to read this summer" list, and perhaps a "people I need to write letters to" list. Never stop moving!
Remember, "If you're not getting better, you're getting worse."
xoxo
Gypsy
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